My Sacrifice......."

75cc expander tissue balloon in my forehead makes me think of so many
sacrifices that I had to make to remove the mole from my forehead. It has
been four times I have done plastic surgery but my pursuit to look better
and reach the state of perfection still continues. Also, the mental state
through which I had to go and the sacrifices that I needed to make made it
even more difficult.

My fifth awaited opportunity came as a boon, which would end my pursuit for
perfection but greater challenges were attached with it. If I decided to
continue with my surgery, I had to sacrifice my two precious months. Two
months is really a long time and besides that, I would be away from all my
daily duties. At first I was unable to decide but finally, I made up my
mind, hoping to get the best result out of my sacrifices.

I had a 75cc silicon expander tissue balloon inside my forehead (a foreign
body), so I had to be careful with various infections. My doctor got this
balloon as a donation, so it was fine to me, otherwise, it would be very
expensive at my own cost. Somehow my surgery is like a cosmetic, which is
rare in our country. After my 1st phase of surgery, I had to go hospital
twice a week for injection to expand balloon. Sometimes, I felt why I am
doing all this, wasting my time, killing my desires and letting other
opportunities go but then this was what I was wanting for such a longtime.
The doctor had told me that I could go out with a cap but I knew people
would stretch their eyes on me and question me a lot. Also, I had fear of
infection from dirt and pollution so; unwillingly I had to stay at home for
two complete months. But after all it was my decision and all I could do was
pray and hope for best result. I had to do lot of compromises and sacrifices
but then, this is what life is made of.

I promise you all this was not easy at all. My surgery was a high risk and I
was very much worried and nervous. I missed my psychology classes, missed
the snowfall in Nagarkot, social gatherings, weddings, traveling with
friends but all this made me strong from inside and I could make major
decisions of life all by myself. These two months taught me to be patience,
to be independent and built up that inner confidence in me.

Today, I am glad that I took that major decision in life and the experience
that I got from my decision was truly of great value. After all, it is the
experiences that we rejoice at the end of the run. I have learnt that" to
get something we need to give something too".
I think I made a correct decision and the sacrifices that I had to make were
worth it



Smriti sharma tiwari .